Sad feeling of being hated.

Lately, no one seems to care much, then again no one ever did care.
My family, especially my brother, and my cousins, seem to bad mouth me constantly.
"Not to be mean.." sorry, but you are being mean to me, I am sorry for the harsh reality I invoke in you that causes you to cringe.
I am sorry that I cannot be like my brother who can fix computers like a pro, who can go out without having to worry about the sun burning he's skin.
I am sorry for being silent, I am sorry for always trying to shy myself out of things.
I cannot do things right, I do understand that, I may sound "smart" here, but when I speak I sound like a 10 year old.
I dislike it all, I dislike how in my family, if you are a female, you must dress up pretty, very pretty.
I hate how everyone pesters me about how I look "wear a nice skirt" "fix your hair" "loose that sweater.. so big"
I don't want to show myself off, I don't need to anyways.
I do not see the big problem from, being out of the "normal" things, I can't do "normal" things, most of the time I'm drawing.
I get teased at school sometimes due to my way of being and my voice, I try not to let my true side show, so they wont find a fuel to tease me even more.
I can't stop my family from being mean to me constantly, I can't stop them from looking at me like low class, I can't stop them from thinking I'm useless in life.
That is how life is for me, and possibly for many others, I am not making a statement, nor a thesis statement about anything.
I am just typing or writing however you want to call it, from my own mood at this time.

Thank you for reading. not that anyone ever does.