Sad feeling of being hated.

Lately, no one seems to care much, then again no one ever did care.
My family, especially my brother, and my cousins, seem to bad mouth me constantly.
"Not to be mean.." sorry, but you are being mean to me, I am sorry for the harsh reality I invoke in you that causes you to cringe.
I am sorry that I cannot be like my brother who can fix computers like a pro, who can go out without having to worry about the sun burning he's skin.
I am sorry for being silent, I am sorry for always trying to shy myself out of things.
I cannot do things right, I do understand that, I may sound "smart" here, but when I speak I sound like a 10 year old.
I dislike it all, I dislike how in my family, if you are a female, you must dress up pretty, very pretty.
I hate how everyone pesters me about how I look "wear a nice skirt" "fix your hair" "loose that sweater.. so big"
I don't want to show myself off, I don't need to anyways.
I do not see the big problem from, being out of the "normal" things, I can't do "normal" things, most of the time I'm drawing.
I get teased at school sometimes due to my way of being and my voice, I try not to let my true side show, so they wont find a fuel to tease me even more.
I can't stop my family from being mean to me constantly, I can't stop them from looking at me like low class, I can't stop them from thinking I'm useless in life.
That is how life is for me, and possibly for many others, I am not making a statement, nor a thesis statement about anything.
I am just typing or writing however you want to call it, from my own mood at this time.

Thank you for reading. not that anyone ever does.

Well, I can't think of a title

Haven't updated this at all, been busy playing Eden Eternal (yeah, I know.. I play to much)
,but hey at least I do stuff, I think, I guess
school starts soon, so that's a ..somewhat good thing xD
don't like school :c
got a tablet~ so yay~ 8D
but barely draw though :c

Apperantly I cause problems..

Dang it, I made another error in life, xD
Well, me and my friend (kinda like best friend,, boyfriend.. friend that's a male..?) were playing Eden Eternal, on an important part, well kinda, we were doing non quest things, but getting exp and whatnot
and I have to go, so I get offline, because something comes up... OTL
well, apperantly I went offline at the wrong time (we weren't doing anything important, about to start the 5th round of our exp hoarding xD? ..I would say that is important...), and yeah, and I made things worse by getting online later on my cousin's laptop to apologize.. oh well
maybe we can play again tomorrow, or tuesday c:
its not like, he'll be angry for... a month or so.. or a week.. just a day, or so..
gah, not playing makes me be bored.. and I dislike that -rolls around-
just felt like posting that in this blog, might make the blog private since nobody ever reads this, or do they..?
idk lol
but I do hope he doesn't stay angry at me for a long while, just for a day,... -pout face- ..
anyways random picture~

None of the images I put up ever seem to... go with the blog feeling xD?

Rainy Days seem so interesting

It's raining here, I don't mind really it's kinda pretty, and calming for me I guess.
Anyways, nothing much, been moody (tsupid female problems..)
So, I'll be my normal self in a week or so (woot woot xD?)
Just wish my moody'ness wouldn't be triggered by a person I talk to a lot.. OTL
What can I do, somethings that they say seem to trigger my need to be moody, or sad, funny aint it?
Anyways, nothing much aside from that.

Random Thoughts

So my birthday was this Saturday (Aug. 6)
I'm officially 16 now, woot.. woot... not really I feel freakin' old to be honest
Anyways, like the usual distracted.
I'll say this, I give up. I give up hard xD
I give up on reality, or anything related to the real world, now here's the big "Why?" answer
Well, look around for a bit, look at the age factor around me, look at the greedy people, look at everyone who seems to be "normal"
They're all dark and twisted in the inside to me, they all lie to have a good ranking, they all act like they're the best, but in reality they aren't really.
Plus, I dislike adults, they're so odd to me, I mean I'm going to be an adult soon yes, but I don't feel like it half of the time when I see people who are older then me.
It's a scary world out there to me, I don't like it at all really..
What can I do, nag about it, that's all I can really do, oh well
Might keep posting something on this blog, if I find the time, nothing "controversial" just thoughts of the daily things I encounter, and yes, I'm a shut-in, as in a NEET, or more like a person who's trapped in a box (I like the box term better)

Shiro~ she makes everything so much fun~ c:

Anime anime, and games

Well, I've just remembered about this blog (a friend made me remember that I had one xD)
so why not update with random stuff? ...?
anyways, usual updates of doom
I was able to finish reading ALL the routes of Saya no Uta (if I ever spoke of it here, I don't think I did..)
but anyways, epic VN the story is a bit, messed up in some senses but hey, it makes sense if you know what the guy is living in, being the only "normal" one in he's world.
Anime's from spring season I've finished watching (wooo... wait Freezing wasn't in spring season.. if not winter season.. I think..), and watching new ones really, not all though like always I never watch EVERY anime..except for spring, I watched each one that wasn't related to a second season of something..
and that was a bad bad bad bad decision..
anywho, currently liking Mawaru Penguin Drum, my goodness, its penguins xDD ..which is cute~
if you haven't watched it , you should give it a try.. the first episode will make you go "HOLY SHNITZELS... how did it happen... o_O" ...even though I went "SHE LIVES!!! EVERYONE PRAISE THE HAT" ...I know, I'm crazy.
anyways, before I forget, I have gotten hooked onto this game called Eden Eternal (I pronounce the E (from elephant) den (the way you say "then" ) ...I guess the right way is E from english, and din ... ii din or something like that.. who knows, anyways, its an epic game~
I found a lot, surprises in the clothes of my chara, play with the camera a bit, you'll figure them out sooner or later if you play lol
putting that aside, I got a Wii... yay~ ?
meh
that's all for this blog, I might update in... a month or less if I remember lol

 Adult Flan is also cute too~ lol

Left 4 Dead 2 and my spring break

Been hunting down to see if I can get Left 4 Dead 2, yes
I know, I'm a female, female playing a game that seems to appeal the male kind is odd, yet
Heck, I love that game its so... epicly interesting <3
anyways, yeah see me around I might have an odd username c: its yet unknown, but I will put it up (if anyone ever reads this, and if you do yayz)
as for Spring Break, I'm in it at the moment
went to New York yesterday, my feet smarted so much from walking around, oh gosh.. OTL
then today went to some places walking with my mom, the soles of my feet have not recovered from the pain,so yeah, it made the pain worsen ,but I'll live,
so yeah, sorry for not updating (if anyone checks)
I shall try to do so ever so often~

Siren Blood Curse

Well, I was bored and whatnot
So I decided to check out this new video
no, I'm not playing it because I would literally piss my pants OTL
so I'm just watching videos of the game play, luckily they don't talk and make fun of everything around them (LOL)
so yeah..
sorry for not putting anything lately, I had problems with PC, and I was lazy to post anything
lol

Late yet again, and odd idea

Well, my bus was late then yesterday (yesterday I missed it really...)
and so yeah, I was 10 min. late to my midterm thing LOL
..but I finished earlier then everyone since it was spanish
spanish = easy LOL~
for me that is..
anyways, no new anime eps (of animes I'm watching really) so
I might read some manga o A o/ and be bored
lol
I wish I had money ; A ;
and onto the odd idea, I wonder, if I could be able to get a job when I'm 16 ...
OTL oh well

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Anime and midterm stuff

Well, haven't updated (so sorry..oh so sorry)
anywho, I've been busy reading Skip Beat! (finally was able to catch up reading)
Been watching Anime, the following
Dragon Crisis! (I'm liking Rose she's so cute~ )
Gosick (Victorique, reminds me of a doll, yay~ ,and its about mysteries which is very interesting for me)
Beelzebub (its violent, but funny)
Freezing (it needs less fanservice, or so I heard the manga had none)
Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magika ( ; A ; gaaah, its so interesting)
Starry Sky (eps are short, yet I don't mind)
Kore wa zombie desu ka? (gore + comedy = win~)
Gintama (I think its still on-going maybe they paused or something but its funny)
and thats pretty much what I'm watching, hurr hurr

I rarely watch anime in season so yeah, its a little miracle that I try, but yeah I like old animes too, but new ones are good too~

Anywhos, I'm learning japanese, and now tagalog(native language of the Philippines~) , and for some reason, French, and Italian LOL ...
so far doing ok with Japanese :c
still learning tagalog, I wish I had someone to teach me, and the person who knows is to lazy to help me out OTL
as for french and italian I just pick up at school c: since they teach it there LOL
so far I think I'm doing good.. kinda..

anyways, I have midterms this week, oh my ; A ;
was almost late for my math one today OTL
I did a bad thing to lie OTL oh well
I couldn't even explain to the teacher, so yeah, it was a white lie~ so shhhh
anyways, I wish my friend Michi(her nickname), would have given me a hat her mom made for me that day ; A ;
it was very cold OTL and I had no hoodie, no hat no nothing *snif* sad..oh so sad
well this blog thing is getting long I might talk about anime in the next few blogs, and my opinions.. so yeah
; v; ..its spoilers for the people who haven't watched the current eps, and I figured out that
Dragon Crisis! ep 4 might come out next monday~ <3 (thats my guess..)
anyways

Bye~

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Well

I was wondering, if DECO*27 made any new songs, well I've only heard a new one by GUMI
its very nice, even though I don't know the song lyrics, well the illustrations kinda tell the story of the song LOL
in a way, in my opinion, I guess its about a girl that likes a guy, but she isn't noticed by him, instead he likes another girl and stuff,
so she just wonders stuff
or so thats my guess I could be wrong LOL
anywho, listening to some GUMI songs, theyre a lot of them in Nico Nico Sound.. LOL
anywho.. o A o/ till tomorrow!

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Cosplays, and whatnot

Well, cosplay is very well known by people, well anime fans really lol
its when you dress up as your favorite anime character, and act like them
to be honest, I want to cosplay as a maid... ;///; but..thats very hard since
Maid outfits take time to do
and well, I'm not very great with sewing and stuff..
and I wouldn't wear the outfit really.. OTL
but its a nice thing~ <3 to see other people cosplay it makes you wonder how much they worked on that outfit, or paid for it.. and whatnot ..if they bought it LOL
anywho, thats how I see it,
well nothing much it might snow Friday ..or Thursday o A o;; so yeah
its eh.. OTL


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( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ Hako's Day today

Well, My day was, kinda sleepy'ish since, I finally went back to school after, a week of vacation OTL so, I wasn't very ready
I didn't fall asleep in math class today ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ yokatta!!!
yet I was getting lazy in english ; A ; iie!!!
but at least I paid attention during Math Class,
Mid terms soon, in 2 weeks, like January 14 or so..
I think, or so thats what they told me
Must study hard for that （￣へ￣）
Well History and math that is.. OTL


oh well, nothing much anymore, just wanted to say how my day was, it was ok, had some homework
I finished it.. I feel somewhat accomplished I did my math work
Anywho, until tomorrow (even though no one reads this really)

Hatsune Miku + Gore Songs = Yay?

Well, Hatsune Miku is a very, well known Voice Synthesis program (harharhar)

She's known to sing many songs on NicoNico Douga, and well have her own CDs made and stuff, yet she isn't the ONLY VOC@LOID made, theres more just not so many people know,

MEIKO
KAITO
Kagamine Rin and Len(Ren?)
Hatsune Miku
Megurine Luka
Lily (I don't think she has a last name.. |||OTL)
Sweet Ann
Lola
Leon
(etc. etc....I think thats all of them, if theres more then sorry for not knowing |||OTL) well I would put pictures of them but sadly, Sweet Ann, Lola, and Leo only have... the box art (or so, I've seen) and the fan pictures some aren't very good ( ; A ; I've only seen .."ok" ones..)

anywho, I'm not an epic fan of Hatsune Miku (I like her songs..) but I'm more of a fan of her Failed version (I like Haku more then Miku .. OTL), but not many songs of her are created L O L, since ..I don't know, there are a few, but not many I think..
Yowane Haku was made by an artist after, reading the comments people made after using Hatsune Miku after a while, saying they couldn't get a good sound out of the program, so yeah, Yowane Haku was made, by CAFFEIN(I think he/her was the artist who created Yowane Haku, if not then sorry OTL) another character I think was made was Akita Neru, she's supposed to represent the users of VOC@LOID, who seem to give up half way in the music making, so yeah..

the reason why I like VOC@LOID, is very odd xD
but I like it, especially the gore songs they seem to sing
some is good others are not so good.. but it all depends in likes o A o/

anywho, Thats all for todays random Blog thingy ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

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Hello~

Hello everyone (I doubt anyone will read this but hey..)

I'm Hako (not my real name but oh well OTL)

If I can remember Hako means box... (I think)

my likes are very easy to see, but in time more shall pop out (・∀・ ) 

I like using emoticons, Japanese ones that is, so yeah.. don't mind them if they pop up here and there

Well, my first entry with nothing interesting really (ha ..haha...ha ..-in a box- )

and another random note I like boxes (...I don't know why but I do.. ; v; )

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